the Trainer

K told me cl is a very crazy place. I should go to somewhere more serious…
So I went on match.com

The first guy I met, another Dan, let’s call him Dan1a.

He was an athletic trainer at a university. Little long hair, athletic build… Dan1a is very American.

I’m not really into muscle, but in America, when a man is not muscle, 95 percent mean fat.

We met, in another local Starbuck. : “you look adorable, better than in the picture”. Wow! Sound nice. We cracked some jokes, made some laugh. After an hour, we parted, with big smiles on our face.

I told K it went well.

So we date.

He was a divorcee with no kid. “Do you cook?” (K is always around, sorry) “yes, I do, I do”. “Are you a good cook?”. “yes, I am… what? Why do you look at me that way? Okok I’m bad. I burn everything…”. “But you still cook?”. “yes, I have to feed myself…”

He sounded romantic. Capricorns are always romantic…

So I thought of writing him something nice, and poem email.

So we went for few dates without telling him what I did for living. Of course the time came. I told him my son is autistic, my husband is out of job and I have been working in nail salon for a while to support the family.

The reaction was bad.

I posted all these email below

"Dan,

It's hard to call you today, we both missed each other.

So I decided to write you something.

I think I like what You wrote on the profile. You said I wrote with style, but can you pls. read your profile again, do you see the great style you put in those lines? The way you play with words, repeat them (such as "love life" things)... I guess you don't spend much time to write, but when you do, you do great.

Some says "read between the lines", but to get to know the author, you have to "read behind the lines". I'm trying to learn you, to understand... Somehow it's hard... we hardly know each other. So I tried to read the profile again and again...

I love travelling. I did a lot before getting married. Since then, life has been harder. Somehow I survive. When thing slow down, I would start travelling again. Used to have lots of f riends around Europe, but long time, no see, no phone, no email... guess I'm forgotten, in a closed trash can of the pass...

To Vietnamese people, Hanoi is the town of romantic. It's considered like Paris of Vietnam. Hanoian's accent is soft and beautiful. Hanoian people are polite and delicate....

But it's the old charm. Hanoi now is noisier, busier, less polite, taller and fatter.

But somehow memories linger...

I wish one day, you would be able to go with me, back to my home town. The old soul's still there, wake up early, walk to a lake, there's a moment of peace in each cup of tea.

and the town is blue and green.

and the kiss is blue and green.

have a good night."

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" Thank you that was very beautiful. Its not that I don't like u I do but u r in a bad situation. I appreciate everything, and I really enjoyed ur company but I'm not ready for a commitment, Not the kind u need. I just got out of a long term marriage, so if u want to with no strings attached then we will."

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" I'm not ready for commitment also, but I'm not interested in NSA. Bad situation is not my fault. But do I bother anyone with my situation? have always been an indipendence. Thanks for being honest"