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So I started posting advertisement on cl, a kind of website that u can find everything, from a broken chair to a real person. Lots of problems with this kind of web, authorities and police officers are headache. But it’s not my own problem, at least till now.

The depression of having a real family makes my heart restless. I want to find a good man, to fall in love, to have more kids, to share the rest of life. But my heart somehow is still with K, with his jealous and hates. But deep down, I know we both have to move on. He would never get his peace back with my asking of children every single day. I was getting older every stinking day. The time for baby had been shorten quickly and I put all the pressure on his shoulder…

It’s not easy to find a good man, especially to someone who come from the culture when people say they love each other hundreds times before taking each other to bed, to the culture where they go to bed hundreds of times before saying they love each other. K said his “L” word to me the first time after dating for year and few months. I know he meant it, he really meant it. But do I have time to be patient wait like that again.

So I try to write down all my adventure in this part of the world. My apology for any English mistaken in both grammar and sentence as I’m so not native English speaker. In addition, this writing is too private, and I have been too shy to ask for any English native editing help. But in the other side, no any other editor, mean the words would not be changed to different purposes, would still be my raw writing and feeling.

So the process of all these adventures would be like this: I posted an Ad. Men will reply. Sometimes I reply men’s post, if any really interesting ad, but it’s not usual. Women’s advertisements usually get more replies than men. There’s some men replied to every ad I posted, I guess they replied to all the advertisements every single day. How do they have the time, I don’t know. What’re their real purposes, I don’t know. But I don’t read them after the 3 replied

I deleted all email with naked picture, penis pictures and something sound like “how long, how wide” kind of words. These types are normally about 30 percent. There’re about 15 percent of too old man, 15% of too young, 30% of married men looking for extra sex…

I would pick few emails to reply. After that cut, we would find a public place to meet for a second round…