when you get involved with a married man

I, myself, more than once felt for married men, back then during my girlhood. My first love was spoiled by lies and dishonest. This piece is for all the women, found the perfection in married men, who are, getting closer to perfect by being married. Next time, I’ll post another piece about what do we, women, are looking for in men, and the type of men, who would move our women hearts by miles…

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When you get involved with a married man, there will be a lot of cold lonely night, try to lullaby yourself, stare at the ceiling, to feel the burning desire of a warm hug, a good night kiss or just the manly scent on empty pillow. Sometimes, you even just wish for a good night text.

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When you get involved with a married man, life will stop going the way you plan. The world is upside down. A little family of your own? Science fiction! The dream child of love? What the hell are you talking about! His words “want to take care of you”? Dreamer!

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When you get involved with a married man, holidays will be all nightmares. How can you go through his favorite thanksgiving? His wife will cook, his children will make the table, there will be a perfect picture of happy family and you had never been existed. The Christmas week will totally be empty, will be no phone, no text, and don’t dare to think of a date. He is busy, priority have to be taken care of, no room for you.

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When your car broke down on highway in the New Year morning, the first thing popped up on your mind would be the manly man? No, he was on his way taking his lady out for a romantic sweet date. Oh god, please don’t cry you’re stupid girl. You are so not his priority. Please don’t feel like abundant crap aside life-road.

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And the valentine’s… let’s start learning to hate it. There will be only you. Restaurants are full of reservations for legal couples, let alone the loneliness. Yes you can cry, you can scream, you can go buying yourself a bunch of red roses and pretend to be happy. Yes you are happy. Just don’t tell anyone it’s a lie.

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Family is like a little nest, for him each day bring home a little hay, fix the door, paint the walls, securely comfortably cover his perfect life. Sometimes, on the way looking for hay, he sees your cute ass and says “hey, I need little extra fun before going back to the nest”. You will see yourself trying to collect the hurry moment he gives to you, then seeing him get off. Again, you go back home, building up your nest, lonely, patiently, your way is boring and long.

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When you get involved with a married man, there will be a lot of loneliness. The day will full of phone checking and day dreaming, the poor little dreams that never come true. The sweetness turn sour when you realize the unsafely fiction zone. You will tear a lot, you will brave a lot. So why you can’t just turn around, walk away. Why the hold is so tight, the kiss’s so passionate, the words are sweet and the love making is so emotional.

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When you get involved with a married man, you are not the only one. There’re lots of women out there in the same sinking boat. Oh those stupid women, lead their lives by sickness hearts. Beautiful sunny out there, why don’t you just get out, inhale few healthy breaths?

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Your life is short.